Lead

Trillions of people in the world
A school full of faces
A family full of love
Yet loneliness evades my heart

The wave from a stranger on the street
Or the smile from a child in a stroller
A room filled with friends I love so dearly
I cannot doubt that there is love in my life

What also cannot be doubted is this feeling I feel
It is dull and it lurks and it harasses my dreams
It lives in the tears that flow out of my eyes
It follows the waves of the sounds of my screams

At times this feeling is not on my mind
But others it drowns me and I forget how to breathe
I know that there are more good days than bad
That is a question that need not be asked

But the question I must ask 
That clouds over my head
Is how much pain can the heart take
Until it becomes solid lead